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Killing the Buddha

On Waiting

I am an expert on waiting. That doesn’t mean I’m good at it. On Twitter last night, Ibram X Kendi sagely compared his election feelings to the ones he had before cancer surgery. It’s true: very similar. Very life or death. But this morning, I can’t stop thinking about scans. Scans loom on the horizon…

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Raking Hope

This simple act of caring for my home in order to prepare for winter feels like an absurd act of hope.

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Sometimes You Want to Go

If only we could find a way to live together.

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The Wrong Tape

I never did learn why that tape was hidden inside a Disney box at a block sale. But there is something both very wrong and very apropos about what happened.

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Return, Reimagine, Ritualize, Rebel: How has 2020 changed your spiritual life?

KtB is inviting submissions about how the events of this year have impacted your spiritual life.

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God Bless and Be Well

What does church look like when the Baptists go online in a science town?

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Prophetic Confinement

“Go, be confined inside your house!” Pandemic parallels stretch back as far as the sixth century BCE, when even the prophets Ezekiel and Jeremiah were restricted to their homes during their ministry.

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A New Ramadan

This year’s Ramadan promised to be different before it started.

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In the Garden

One of the last things I did in the time I now think of only as before was to take a hike at Occonneechee Mountain State Natural Area in North Carolina with my boyfriend. It was early March, and everything was still brown, save for patches of moss alongside the path. We thought it would be nice…

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Apocalyptabuse, or How to Survive “The End”

Call this fantasized thinking apocalyptabuse: the demoralizing mythic-psychic warfare that deprives people of hope, makes us fear that The End is near, and thereby cuts off our aspirations of any earthly life to come.

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It’s the End and Nothing Feels Fine

I don’t use the word “apocalypse” or “apocalyptic” lightly. I’m a scholar of bad endings. And the pandemic that we face right now feels like it could be a very bad ending.

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Holy Shit

I thought: What would the rabbis say about the giant inflatable colon? As a colon cancer survivor, will I ever see shit as just shit again?

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Et Tu, Almonds? On Guilt and Eating

Meanwhile I forgive you, my beloved almonds, for not being harmless; I am not harmless either.

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The Dust of Us

I love walking around with a sign of dying on my face.

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Taken in Evangelical America

Once again, I find I am a kind of believer.

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This Way to the Gas Chambers, Ladies and Gentlemen (Auschwitz 2003)

It occurred to me that one is always imagining how one could live in Auschwitz. But almost everyone died in Auschwitz.

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For Christ Was Born in a Refugee Camp

An icon must be thought of as a divine portal in its own right, charged with the transcendent. That makes it all the more powerful when an icon explicitly condemns a contemporary injustice.

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Getting to the Good Place

Can moral philosophy get Eleanor, Chidi, Jason, and Tahani to the Good Place, or do we need to talk, first, about salvation?