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In the Garden

One of the last things I did in the time I now think of only as before was to take a hike at Occonneechee Mountain State Natural Area in North Carolina with my boyfriend. It was early March, and everything was still brown, save for patches of moss alongside the path. We thought it would be nice…

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Apocalyptabuse, or How to Survive “The End”

Call this fantasized thinking apocalyptabuse: the demoralizing mythic-psychic warfare that deprives people of hope, makes us fear that The End is near, and thereby cuts off our aspirations of any earthly life to come.

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It’s the End and Nothing Feels Fine

I don’t use the word “apocalypse” or “apocalyptic” lightly. I’m a scholar of bad endings. And the pandemic that we face right now feels like it could be a very bad ending.

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Holy Shit

I thought: What would the rabbis say about the giant inflatable colon? As a colon cancer survivor, will I ever see shit as just shit again?

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Et Tu, Almonds? On Guilt and Eating

Meanwhile I forgive you, my beloved almonds, for not being harmless; I am not harmless either.

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The Dust of Us

I love walking around with a sign of dying on my face.

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Taken in Evangelical America

Once again, I find I am a kind of believer.

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This Way to the Gas Chambers, Ladies and Gentlemen (Auschwitz 2003)

It occurred to me that one is always imagining how one could live in Auschwitz. But almost everyone died in Auschwitz.

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For Christ Was Born in a Refugee Camp

An icon must be thought of as a divine portal in its own right, charged with the transcendent. That makes it all the more powerful when an icon explicitly condemns a contemporary injustice.

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Getting to the Good Place

Can moral philosophy get Eleanor, Chidi, Jason, and Tahani to the Good Place, or do we need to talk, first, about salvation?

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Dream State in Sturgis Library

The story threads written so long ago still tied us to the world out there, like spider silk unspooling across the moat.

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Lamentations

Why do some of us have to witness and bear the destruction of a world—a destruction that we did not make?

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Bloomsday

In the home I grew up in, we consider all books sacred. When someone accidentally drops a book or grazes one with a foot, we place our hand on the cover and gently touch our closed eyelids.

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Goddess Therapy

When conventional medicine and therapy fail, some turn to the goddess.

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Blossoms (Hadeish Yameinu)

How do I reclaim a holiday of liberation when I feel like I’ve spent the last year entrapped by a frightening cloud of uncertainty?

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All in the Interfaith Family

Susan Katz Miller talks about “how to be the most joyful and creative and successful interfaith family you can be, whatever that looks like.”

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Meditating with My Father’s Friends

We were all there for the same purpose—to understand our own suffering and maybe find some relief.

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End-of-Life Lullaby

Grieving is a lit cave.