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Killing the Buddha

On Waiting

I am an expert on waiting. That doesn’t mean I’m good at it. On Twitter last night, Ibram X Kendi sagely compared his election feelings to the ones he had before cancer surgery. It’s true: very similar. Very life or death. But this morning, I can’t stop thinking about scans. Scans loom on the horizon…

A giant inflatable colon, for Colorectal Cancer Awareness Month

Holy Shit

I thought: What would the rabbis say about the giant inflatable colon? As a colon cancer survivor, will I ever see shit as just shit again?

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Blossoms (Hadeish Yameinu)

How do I reclaim a holiday of liberation when I feel like I’ve spent the last year entrapped by a frightening cloud of uncertainty?

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Dear Flannery

Letters to friends, God, and Ms. O’Connor. Republished in honor of Briallen’s first book, Hard To Love: Essays And Confessions, out today from Bloomsbury.

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Celebrate the Death

Dust to dust, the stuff of us, before and after life.

Drawn by a sixth-grader at South Windsor Elementary School

Holding Light

Waging peace on terror, with refugees.

windyroad[Editor's note: you can read about Ashley's experience with biking as a "survivor" in the 2014 Closer to Free ride here. She has written more about cancer and her work with refugees here and in her KtB e-book <em>You Were Strangers: Dispatches From Exile</em>.]

Easter, A Bright Sadness

Death is a kind of light.

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Ashley Wednesday

“I go to Mass early, start the day laden with the strangeness of being a Christian, of being part of this we who celebrate death and resurrection. After the ashes, Communion. After the bread and wine, the body and blood of Christ, it’s a relief to move on to bran flakes and coffee. But you’ve…

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Strangers and Friends

A conversation with Ashley Makar and John Green, on the occasion of her new book, You Were Strangers.

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Am I a Survivor?

I was ambivalent about wearing the word survivor on my sleeve, until I put on my biking jersey for Smilow Cancer Hospital’s “Closer to Free” ride. I’m a stage-IV cancer patient, currently in treatment at Smilow—not the kind of survivor who’s cancer-free. I didn’t want to wear the label that tends to be on the…

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Saint Anthony And Lost Things

Learning the art of losing.

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Leaves of Ash

You forget and then remember: you’re dying.

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Help Me Roll Away the Stone

The life of an unusual Chicago church.

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Stones As Social Media

Adapted from A History of Religion in 5 ½ Objects (Beacon Press, March 11th)

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Doggerel Fails Me

An excerpt from the new e-book Cancer Doesn’t Give a Shit About Your Stupid Attitude.

Art by Emma Bailey

Happy New Year from KtB!

Herewith, in the spirit of the season, a highly subjective New Year’s Eve countdown of our favorite KtB moments of 2013. 10 Illustrated posts by Communicant Mary Valle. 9 New books by Buddha-killers. 8  hot tips on new Buddha-killing movies by Becky Garrison. 7 Habits of a Highly Effective Philosopher. 6  Pieces of original reporting…

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The Golden Helmet of Jubilation

Loki is my new Beatles, prayer-wise.

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Heresy at Gethsemane

I found myself at the foot of an olive tree, my body folding into a crouch.